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Why Silent Hill 3 is a groundbreaking game in terms of equality & Female protagonists:
I bring this up because it’s not noted by anyone else and many people in feminism seem to use it to focus on negative rather than some positive examples. While there are many games which have female protags and it’s something that’s been around for awhile I think SH3 was ground breaking in this area  for several reasons. Heather, the main character, should be highlighted in the video game arena more for being one of the best written female video game characters.
Many games, when having female protagonists, are still geared towards a male audience. (Yes, SH3 isn’t the exception here, but hear me out.) This usually manifests itself in over-sexualization of the character. At worst the character is portrayed as being too dependent on a male character. Heather is sexualized in some promo-pictures, really notably one, but it’s still very light compared to most games. (She doesn’t exhibit any exaggerated sexualization.)
It’s worth mentioning that in the Making of Silent Hill 3, Heather was going to have less feminine appearance in her correspondence to her character being called a “tomboy”. As a consequence she was supposed to take on wearing a shirt and pants. This is still retained in her alt. outfits:

The women of the team disagreed with this. They wanted her appearance to be more feminine. They suggested adding curls to her hair and adding a skirt design rather than pants. (More like they pressured the designer into changing it, amirite? ) The resulting look became her default:

This translate that Heather has become less stereotypical of a tomboy, and more normal.She isn’t sexy either. She’s just feminine and casual.
Aesthetics don’t make the game or her character more positive, however. They only add to it as a facet. Moving onto her character. While Heather does come off as very understandably angry about the situation that unreveals itself, she also comes off being assertive. She doesn’t really lose her cool all the time but she won’t tolerate people ordering her around or messing with her loved ones.
Her personality is very realistic, which is a rare thing. (Thought it should be noted the game strives for realism in it’s atmosphere.) Her character is totally believable. Even if she is reckless and the fool, she’s still young and a teenager.
As she develops, she is fighting against the role of a mother. This is very positive and important because Heather is, albeit unintentionally, fighting against the fact that she is to be used only to reproduce. (Even if that role is the “Mother of God”.) She is more than the role of the “Mother of God”. She seeks to empower herself and to maintain her independence. But most of all, she seeks happiness and life, rather than her counterpart Alessa, who seeks an escape from suffering through death. She isn’t afraid of suffering, she is ready to confront it.
Heather fights, she does this, alone. She continues to fight herself and the side that wants to escape through death, while she fights the monsters for survival. She remembers the suffering, in her realistic view, she understands that suffering is a fact of life. She and everyone else will be dealing with it for the rest of their lives, there is no escape. But that doesn’t mean happiness cannot be obtained or that you have to put up with that suffering.
Throughout the game, the characters treat her as an equal in regards to her gender.  But “The Mother of God” title should, by logic, give her more privilege but in most cases it doesn’t. Members of the cult conspire to kill her, as to preserve their own lives, while others seek to use her to descend their god through causing her suffering and hatred. Heather realizes this focus on the negative and destructive is wrong. (This  can’t be god if it demands such from it’s followers!) She will not tolerate the harm that it causes and is determined to end this problem. She won’t be their slave only to be used sexually or through suffering to procreate god, either.
Silent Hill 3 is about a girl going through her own struggles within herself, fighting injustice, and fighting the traditional roles that people have put on her based on her sex. She empowers herself and refuses to back down. She refuses to be forced to be a “mother”, while some of that may have to do with being scared of pregnancy, she isn’t willing to sacrifice her independence at this point in her life or sacrifice her life at all. most of all though, she survives through her own skills and abilities. Even if that means surviving herself.

"Family Portrait (Live Acoustic)"

20 Days of Pink: Music Challenge

Day 20: A song that sounds better acoustic.

Beautiful, and powerful.


*texts back 3 weeks later* sorry I fell asleep

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Discovering new music completely different from what you usually listen to


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"Just Like A Pill (Live)"

20 Days of Pink: Music Challenge

Day 19: A song that sounds better live.


"Wait, these are actually hella cute questions."
1. Who was the last person you held hands with?
2. Are you outgoing or shy?
3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?
4. Are you easy to get along with?
5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?
6. What kind of people are you attracted to?
7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?
8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?
9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?
10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?
11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?
12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?
13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?
14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?
15. What good thing happened this summer?
16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
17. Do you think there is life on other planets?
18. Do you still talk to your first crush?
19. Do you like bubble baths?
20. Do you like your neighbors?
21. What are you bad habits?
22. Where would you like to travel?
23. Do you have trust issues?
24. Favorite part of your daily routine?
25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?
26. What do you do when you wake up?
27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?
28. Who are you most comfortable around?
29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?
30. Do you ever want to get married?
31. Is your hair long enough for a pony tail?
32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?
33. Spell your name with your chin.
34. Do you play sports? What sports?
35. Would you rather live without TV or music?
36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?
37. What do you say during awkward silences?
38. Describe your dream girl/guy?
39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?
40. What do you want to do after high school?
41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?
43. Do you smile at strangers?
44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?
45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?
46. What are you paranoid about?
47. Have you ever been high?
48. Have you ever been drunk?
49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?
50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?
51. Ever wished you were someone else?
52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?
53. Favourite makeup brand?
54. Favourite store?
55. Favourite blog?
56. Favourite colour?
57. Favourite food?
58. Last thing you ate?
59. First thing you ate this morning?
60. Ever won a competition? For what?
61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?
62. Been arrested? For what?
63. Ever been in love?
64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?
65. Are you hungry right now?
66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?
67. Facebook or Twitter?
68. Twitter or Tumblr?
69. Are you watching tv right now?
70. Names of your bestfriends?
71. Craving something? What?
72. What colour are your towels?
72. How many pillows do you sleep with?
73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?
75. Favourite animal?
76. What colour is your underwear?
77. Chocolate or Vanilla?
78. Favourite ice cream flavour?
79. What colour shirt are you wearing?
80. What colour pants?
81. Favourite tv show?
82. Favourite movie?
83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?
84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?
85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?
86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?
87. First person you talked to today?
88. Last person you talked to today?
89. Name a person you hate?
90. Name a person you love?
91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?
92. In a fight with someone?
93. How many sweatpants do you have?
94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?
95. Last movie you watched?
96. Favourite actress?
97. Favourite actor?
98. Do you tan a lot?
99. Have any pets?
100. How are you feeling?
101. Do you type fast?
102. Do you regret anything from your past?
103. Can you spell well?
104. Do you miss anyone from your past?
105. Ever been to a bonfire party?
106. Ever broken someone’s heart?
107. Have you ever been on a horse?
108. What should you be doing?
109. Is something irritating you right now?
110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?
111. Do you have trust issues?
112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?
113. What was your childhood nickname?
114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?
115. Do you play the Wii?
116. Are you listening to music right now?
117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?
118. Do you like Chinese food?
119. Favourite book?
120. Are you afraid of the dark?
121. Are you mean?
122. Is cheating ever okay?
123. Can you keep white shoes clean?
124. Do you believe in love at first sight?
125. Do you believe in true love?
126. Are you currently bored?
127. What makes you happy?
128. Would you change your name?
129. What your zodiac sign?
130. Do you like subway?
131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?
132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?
133. Favourite lyrics right now?
134. Can you count to one million?
135. Dumbest lie you ever told?
136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?
137. How tall are you?
138. Curly or Straight hair?
139. Brunette or Blonde?
140. Summer or Winter?
141. Night or Day?
142. Favourite month?
143. Are you a vegetarian?
144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?
145. Tea or Coffee?
146. Was today a good day?
147. Mars or Snickers?
148. What’s your favourite quote?
149. Do you believe in ghosts?
150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page?  (via tchitsnathan)

(Source: catscuddlingandyou, via fragile--clockwork--heart)

"Oh how we forget
that everything is a choice
and we can decide."

Daily Haiku on Love by Tyler Knott Gregson (via tylerknott)

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I really really really miss sex.